Bolthouse Farms vanilla chai soy protein drink is wonderful wonderful wonderful.
Have you ever been hungry but with no idea what you want to eat? That's how I feel about guys lately, if that makes any sense. I want some sort of relationship, a boyfriend I guess, but I have no romantic drive whatsoever... Maybe it's just the security (whether imagined or real) of feeling like somebody loves me. I'm not even sure what I'd WANT from a boyfriend, or more importantly, what I'd want that I don't already have in just my regular friends in terms of emotional involvement and support. I don't have romantic notions about expensive dates and making out and romantic moonlight walks on the beach and what have you. Maybe all I want is a feeling of permanence.
Silly Taurus girl, always needs to bet on a sure thing.
Francesca Lia Block's book Weetzie Bat is really cool.
From August 5 - 30, I'm going to be completely free. No classes, no work, no obligations. Just me doing my thing. I think I'll probably go crazy from boredom or something. Maybe I'll go and volunteer at the animal shelter. Or maybe take a road trip. Katie wants me to go down to Chicago, but I don't want to... maybe I'll drive out to North Dakota or something. Or Canada. Or Ely, so I can see where Kvale works now.
Or maybe I should dream of a long beautiful backroads trip down to New Mexico again to lay to rest some of the demons that keep plaguing me. Three weeks is a long time. Three years is almost forever.
Going to class now.