[Listening to: Flogging Molly, "Rare Ould Times"]
So I've spent yet another weekend mostly out of my room with a bunch of other people in other living rooms eating and talking and having fun. Saturday, soon after I made my previous post, I was surprised, taken out to get Chinese food and then taken to some friends' house and ended up setting up and playing a character for a White Wolf game (I get to be a werekitty!). It was very spur-of-the-moment, unexpected, lots of fun. I felt a little bad tho, cuz by about midway through the game I came down with a pretty terrible headache and became much more subdued than I wish I had been. C'est la vie, I will (hopefully) get another chance in a couple weeks. Mostly I just think I was exhausted, as was evidenced by my very odd/giddy/whatever behaviour in the car on the way home.
Today, I wasn't actually playing, but I still had a lot of fun observing a D&D game known to those involved as "the Evil campaign". So much fun, in fact, that I asked if I could maybe join the game next time. And it looks like that's going to happen. So more on that in a couple weeks, maybe. Also, it was decided that I'm making dinner next Sunday (now a tradition). I'm thinking fajitas, with the spice quotient altered to suit typical Midwestern (bland) tastes instead of my admittedly slightly masochistic penchant for really hot food. Grubbs already volunteered to help with the production. Mmm... good ol' New Mexican-type food.
It was interesting to observe in the mood I was in today, because it caused me to realize a few things: 1) I'm really starting to learn quite a bit about the mechanics of D&D; and 2) I think I tend to play dumb a lot more than I really should or need to. See, sometimes I'll pretend not to remember things, or not to know things, because it seems like something that I shouldn't know, or something so minor that I shouldn't remember it. I think I do it in part so as not to intimidate people. I mean... how weird is it when people seem to remember a lot of things about you that you've maybe only mentioned once? I have a good memory; I remember most things that people tell me.
I don't have a really good mind for dates or names, but events and facts are no problem. Neither are song lyrics or poetry. But sometimes I will "conveniently forget"; it keeps me out of the spotlight, and it gets other people to talk. In general, I don't like to talk a lot. I much prefer to listen, and file things away.
Also, I tend to be good at noticing things, little details that other people ignore or just plain don't see. I pick up on other peoples' mannerisms and tend to adopt them without really meaning to. This, coupled with a good memory, can either make me seem really smart, or really creepy. But I'm starting to notice that the people I spend time with mostly think the former instead of the latter. Today I decided not to play dumb. I learned that I could do it without sounding like a know-it-all. It's a good feeling. So... less faking ignorance, more polite self-confidence. Easier said than done.
Now I'm tired. It's been a long weekend. Time for sleep.